Tic-Toc, Time Does Not Stop

Yep, sometimes it’s hard to believe I’m in my thirties! How can this be?! I still feel like I’m a spry young chick in her twenties….that is until about 9pm when I lay my baby down for the night and then realize just how exhausted I really am! I feel proud of myself when I resist the urge to crawl into bed before 10 pm! Ah, the life of a parent!

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about life – a prosperous life, a well-fulfilled life, a life of abundance, meaning, and purpose. You see, I just celebrated my birthday yesterday. I turned 33! Yes, I know – I gasp myself when I think about it. 😮 Turning 33, though, is monumental to me. Why? Well, it seems that many historians believe Jesus was 33 when He completed his ministry on this earth. Wow – to realize Jesus was my age when He fulfilled and completed His father’s plan is amazing! Even at this age I still sometimes feel like a kid and not a grown up! I so lack wisdom and understanding in life. I have so much room to grow in my walk with Christ. I have so much to learn as a godly, submissive wife and a joyful, loving mother.

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Of all the passing years Jesus spent teaching, ministering, serving, and performing miracles, His final year at 33 years of age was by far the most impacting. He accomplished so much from His birth yet it was His final year that proved to be the most significant. If it wasn’t for what He accomplished during that final year, all else would have just made for some pretty amazing stories. But it was during His final year at, what we would consider, the prime of His life that He gave the ultimate sacrifice of love. He died providing forgiveness and eternal life and then rose from the grave signifying victory over sin and defeat.

For me, I want this year to be the most impacting from all previous years. I want to impact the world around me during my 33rd year. I want to impact them with the pure love of Jesus. I want to show compassion and gentleness and meekness. I want to woo them to the cross in earnest expectation of forgiveness and spiritual life. I want to impact my friends to seek a more intimate relationship with Jesus Christ. I desire to be an inspiration to them, exemplifying a woman who pants after God and seeks Him with all her heart, soul, mind, and strength by spending time in the Word and prayer daily. I want to impact those closest to me: my dear husband and sweet baby daughter. I want my husband to feel adored, respected, loved, and cared for. I hope to love and cherish my baby with a tenderness and patience that can only come from Christ dwelling within me. I want to train her in the ways of the Lord so that she might love Him at a very young age.

Could this be the year for me? Could this be the year that I leave a ginormous mark on the world?! Can I dare say that I want this year to be the most impacting by far? Will I see God do exceedingly abundantly above all that I could ask or think (Eph 3:20)? I certainly hope so!

Interestingly enough, I learned that the number 33 in the Bible can relate to the promises of God. The 33rd time Noah’s name is used in the Old Testament is when God makes a special covenant with him. The 33rd time Abraham’s name is used in the Bible is when Isaac, the child of promise, is born to him. It also is the numeric equivalent of the word AMEN. God has been so good to me and has certainly proved faithful to His promises throughout the past years.RAINBOW RESOURCES GROUP

I cannot deny the fact that I was privileged to grow up in a God-fearing home with parents who raised me in the fear and admonish of God. They taught me Biblical principles that still stick with me today. They provided discipline and instruction that kept me from wandering aimlessly in my life pursuits. They cautioned me against the evils of this world which I am so very, very grateful for. They gave me ‘wings to fly’ as I ventured to establish my purposes and dreams. They loved me in such a way that inspires me to now love my family in the same way. I’m far from what I should be but by the grace of God I am what I am.

As a wife to a godly man, I’m thankful for the training I had in my younger years to prepare me for this season of life. As a mother to a 6 month old baby, I’m thankful for the example my mother was as she laid down her life for her children. I’ve learned so much from the godly influences the Lord has brought into my life and I’m still learning each and every day. I hope I always have a heart softened towards the things of the Lord so that I never cease to learn and grow.

I’m thankful for a God-fearing husband who puts up with my spontaneous whims, erratic emotions, and OCD tendencies. 😉  I’m amazed by his kindness and patience with me. He’s always so eager to serve me and never gets angry even when it’s so obvious that I am in the wrong.

Realizing how blessed my life is, I feel so unworthy yet so thankful. I look forward to see what changes this year will bring for me. Yes, I may get a few more grey hairs. I might even get a few more wrinkles under my eyes. The passing of time will continue to age my body regardless; but as I age, I want my spirit to be renewed. I want to wake up in the morning excited to live the day with Jesus by my side accomplishing His purposes so that I might leave a legacy of grace and holiness to those who will come behind.

So even though half of me feels like a spry young chick and the other half of me feels like a tired, worn-out aging woman – I say “bring it on!” I’m gonna hold on during this roller coaster ride of life and hopefully when it’s finished think……”now that was pretty awesome!” 😀